Thursday, December 2, 2010

Words Cannot Describe...

The past few days I have been in a real funk.  A roller coaster of emotions.  I have been heartbroken, angry, disappointed, upset, furious, sad and lonely.  I have been so upset that I have not even been able to get the words out. 

I normally just try to bury my feelings, but this time was different.  I needed to get this out.  I needed to process what was happening and how I was feeling.  I was going to do myself no favors if I did not acknowledge what was upsetting me.  I wish I could blame it on one event, but it was a culmination of things building up that just came to a breaking point.  I had had enough.  It was time to express what I was feeling.

I woke up today thinking that it was time to move on.  Time to be in a good mood.  Really, I was just exhausted from the emotions of the previous days but I was not upset.  Tomorrow will be even better.

For the month of November I posted daily on my Facebook status what I was thankful for.  I have so many things to be thankful for.  I really do have a great life.  I do not have the time to be this upset for any length of time.  I need to embrace all the smiles I have in my daily life.

I am happy to say that I spent the day decorating the house for the Holidays and cooking in my kitchen.  The house is looking great and it smells wonderful.  Both of these things help make me feel better.  I think a big bowl of buttered popcorn and a movie with the family will be on the agenda tonight.